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“Life’s Not Fair”

As I pulled back the covers and crawled into bed, the nearby ambulance was dispatched and the siren went by my window. It pushed my exhausted body and heart just over its limit and I started to cry. Suddenly, life didn’t feel fair to me.

I often heard that phrase growing up and I fully believe it and I think this may be this first time in the last 18 months that I have felt “injustice” in my life because of everything going on. I’ve had plenty of others tell me “it’s not right” and “you’re so young, you shouldn’t have to deal with this” but I just shrugged it off, thinking of how it could be worse.

But I always said I could deal with anything as long as it wasn’t stomach issues. And for the last 11 days, I have had constant, debilitating nausea. You can add dizziness, weakness, fatigue, and headaches to that mix too. I have practically laid on my bed or couch all day, and sometimes I’ve been unable to sleep at night because of the nausea. I’ve missed two important church events that I was really looking forward to. And for what? Side-effects of the new medication I’m on. (You may be thinking that my neurologist is a monster but I also haven’t had a seizure in 7 days so we are trying to work things out.)

I don’t often feel like my life is unfair. But that day was my birthday. I was miserable and try as I might to think about all the people who came around me and showed love and blessed me, I just needed to cry for two minutes and then I fell right asleep.

And I think that’s okay. I woke up the next morning, still feeling miserable, but able to thank God for all his blessings and appreciate my friends and family more. Life is certainly not fair, and I’m so thankful because I don’t deserve what I have.

 
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Posted by on October 24, 2017 in blessing

 

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How Very Blessed

Sometimes, I don’t feel blessed. I can hear your gasp and see your shocked face…but it’s true. Sometimes, I feel like my life is awful and I just don’t want any more uncertainty and I want to go home. There are days when I just want to lay in bed and cry all day. Days when the problems of my friends get me down and inject stress into my life. Days when I long just to have my baby brother tell me he loves me and to feel his arms around my neck. Days when I don’t feel blessed.

Now, I realize of course that I am blessed. I have a wonderful family and I have a baby brother TO miss. I don’t have many of the fears and problems of my friends. I have a home to visit. I have tons of people who sincerely care for me. I have plenty of food and a warm place to live. I am blessed.

But, you know what? That isn’t enough. History would tell of millions of people who had all that and more but who weren’t happy or content. They were missing the greatest blessing of them all. The blessing of salvation.

But I have that. I have the assurance of things hoped for and I know the evidence of things not seen. I know my name is written down in the Lamb’s Book of Life and that his hand of grace and mercy is upon me in salvation. I know that the struggles of this life are merely a shadow and that the glory of eternity is mine. I know that my Lord is faithful and just to forgive my sins and that he remembers them no more. I know that my God reigns forever and that he listens when I call to him.

Sometimes, I don’t feel blessed. And sometimes, I just need to be reminded of how very blessed I really am.

 

 

 
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Posted by on January 17, 2014 in blessing

 

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My Devotions this Morning

Today, during my personal devotions I was reading 1 Kings 15-16. By this time, Solomon is dead and the kingdom is divided in two. I was getting into the part of the Bible where it mentions all the kings and a little about what they did during their reign.

 

“In the twentieth year of Jeroboam king of Israel, Asa began to reign over Judah, and he reigned forty-one years in Jerusalem. His mother’s name was Maacah the daughter of Abishalom. And Asa did what was right in the eyes of the LORD, as David his father had done.”   1 Kings 15:9-11

 

I love it when I get to read about a good king because they are all so far and few between (I can only think of 3 at the moment)!  I kept reading and came to:

 

“Nadab the son of Jeroboam began to reign over Israel in the second year of Asa king of Judah…”  1 Kings 15: 25a

 

And a little bit further:

 

“In the third year of Asa king of Judah, Baasha the son of Ahijah began to reign over all Israel…”  1 Kings 15:33a

 

Again:

 

“In the twenty-sixth year of Asa king of Judah, Elah the son of Baasha began to reign over Israel…”  1 Kings 16:8a

“In the twenty-seventh year of Asa king of Judah, Zimri reigned seven days Tirzah.”  1 Kings 16:15a

“In the thirty-first year of Asa King of Judah, Omri began to reign over Israel…”  1 Kings 16:23a

“In the thirty-eighth year of Asa king of Judah, Ahab the son of Omri began to reign over Israel…”  1 Kings 16:29a

 

It was at this point that I suddenly noticed that Asa was STILL king of Judah even though there had been SIX kings of Israel!  I’ve noticed in the past that if a king only reigns for a little while (for instance- 3 days!), it is usually because this statement followed their name:

“did evil in the sight of the LORD.” 

However, when the Bible records that a king did what was right in the eyes of the LORD, it’s usually good news and that king often has a longer reign than the evil kings. This just goes to show that God blesses those who worship him.  I’m not saying that nothing bad will ever happen to a righteous person, because that simply isn’t true!  All you  have to do it look at the New Testament to realize that.  However, the Old Testament is full of verses that promise God’s blessings on those who keep his commandments and follow after him.  Of course, the ultimate blessing will be eternal life with God but I think God also blesses his people on earth, too. 

Maybe it’s not with great wealth, maybe it’s with joy, family, or just the peace that only he gives.  I’m so thankful for God’s blessings!

 
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Posted by on April 17, 2013 in blessing

 

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How (and why) I Babysit

I started babysitting soon after I turned 13.  It began with my siblings. Of course, you know, if you can handle your siblings, every other kid will be a piece of cake. My parents would go out on dates or to bible study together and I would watch the youngins’.  I always knew exactly where they were going and had the usual phone numbers.

Then I started getting requests from other parents.  I got lots of questions about how much I charge and I always gave the same answer. “Nothing.”  I loved the stunned looks on parents faces.  That’s right, I don’t charge anything to babysit and never have because I look on it as a way to bless people.  Now, of course, people don’t allow you to babysit for free, so they always gave me something, but it never mattered how much it was. In fact, this one mom I babysit for doesn’t usually pay me in cash. I often watch her kids when she goes out shopping with her mom and she always buys me something as a thank-you. I’ve gotten scrapbooking stuff, a Vera Bradley lunchbag and shower caddy (for camp!!!), tea mugs, candles, ect. I love it!!!

I’ve babysat overnight (or for a few nights!), for bible studies within my church and for other churches, for parents wanting to get away for a few hours, and for moms who need to take one child to the emergency room (you know who you are)!  Watching my siblings has somehow changed over the years. Now, WE kick the parents out on a date!  I hardly ever know where they are going or when they will be back, unless they’re going to be out REALLY late.  It’s really funny when your five year old brother will beg Mom and Dad to go on dates!

I love to babysit! Kids are hilarious and it’s a great way to bless others.  Rebecca can’t wait until she’s old enough to babysit!  I started writing a book for her on the topic that contains all my knowledge and advice. I better hop to it or she’ll be old enough before I know it!

 
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Posted by on February 20, 2013 in blessing

 

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“My Heart is Filled with Thankfulness”

If you have never heard that song (the title of this post)  by Keith & Kristyn Getty, you need to look it up on YouTube.  It’s a great song and that’s how I feel right now.

We live in an area that is practically exempt from natural disasters.  We get snow in the winter but everyone is used to it and prepares for it.  We rarely loose power.  Once in a while, we get tornado warnings but they have never come near our house.  With Sandy, we just got some wind and rain for a week.  We lost power for three hours but it was in the middle of the night so none of us really paid attention.

As I read and hear about all the damage that Sandy has wrought in other places, I’m filled with thankfulness to God for our protection and the protection of our family and friends.

Here’s the link to that song.  Listen to it and thank God for his blessings.  And pray for those who were hit by the storm.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aSrAhzVD6Lw

 
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Posted by on November 2, 2012 in blessing

 

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New Perspectives

I have a new opportunity before me to be a blessing to someone else.  There is a young, homeschooling mother I know.  She used to babysit me and now I babysit her kids.  I have started going to her house every day to be a help to her.  Cleaning, organizing toys, helping with teaching, and keeping the baby occupied during school time for the older ones are some of the things I help with.

Little did I know that when I went over my first day, the mom would have a terrible headache.  She could barely move, it was so bad.  At that moment, I was grateful for the migraine I had the day before.  I just don’t think I would have been able to minister as well to her if I hadn’t had that experience myself.  I wouldn’t have been as sympathetic to her.

Isn’t it amazing?  What God has planned for us in his wisdom? He knows what is best for me, even if I don’t like it.  So I trust in God, because he loved me before I was born and he enables me to have faith in him. And he is all good, all the time.

 
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Posted by on October 2, 2012 in blessing, encouragment, homeschool

 

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